Is there a verse that says “You have not because you ask not?” Or was that Yoda? Anyway, that’s something that God has been whispering to me lately. Like, “The only thing preventing you from receiving is your own hesitation to ask boldly.”

Maybe God is just waiting to show us how much bigger he is than our thinking. Maybe he’s just waiting for us to grow the balls to step outside of our “if it’s your will” mentality. Maybe he’s just waiting for us to take a leap of faith and wrap our minds around the idea that he wants to work his miracles in extraordinary ways in our personal lives. Maybe he’s just waiting for us to take that first step and ask.

So, I’m really excited about your post and your wrestles that often line up with my own.

Is it either-or for faith and reason? Here’s what I find about “a materialist corkscrew” in our thinking arsenal (in the war against ‘not knowing’), and that is that it just isn’t taken far enough.

Push it through, push the envelope in the thinking and you come to a place where even science recognizes the spiritual. You just have to push it to the edge of what man can know and be willing to be (sorry for overused term) something of a maverick in your thinking.

The trouble is we get stuck. We question the biblical account… but dare we, can we question the great monoliths of our time?

Push on through with your wrestlings.
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Oh, and I’d argue that history is not the place to start for reasoned questioning of faith, just because it is more art than science. History as we understand it is mostly construct. Not that things didn’t really happen, or that there isn’t really pattern and truth in the study of it…. but that it has so many missing pieces that it must become “art” to fill in the understanding and context. Besides the revisions fluctuating according to time and culture.